Do you know that anyone can access their soul guides? All you have to do is practice listening until you get really good at hearing them!
And, Holy Shitsnacks! Do you feel all the turmoil and upheaval and change floating around in the air these days? The energy in the world is swirling and, although it can be heavy and difficult to process at times, it’s also being caused by a major collective shift in consciousness that is leading us all to better times.
At least, that’s what everyone keeps telling me!
A lot of my energy work lately has been consciously calming my tits and constantly reminding myself to breathe through all the crap that I’m feeling – from within and without. It has been a struggle in the past two months, but a productive struggle. Each time I stay calm through a shitty situation and force myself to look at it from more than one angle, I learn something new and add a new coping tool to the ole spiritual toolbox.
And, even though I understand that consciously connecting with universal energy will lead to a deeper connection and strengthen my intuition, I am STILL surprised at how tuned in I am lately and how non-reactive I’m becoming, all due to spending more time connecting to my energy and opening myself to Source. More and more often I feel like I’m letting everything flow through me and allowing myself to sit with it until it passes, rather than freaking out and reacting with primal emotion.
Don’t get me wrong…I’m still a hot-headed cunt sometimes, just not as often as usual! Ha!
The BEST thing about all this conscious energy work is that my connection to my soul guides has amped up and my channeling has progressed so far that I’m sitting back in awe every time it comes through with ease.
Lately, it has been almost daily and all I have to do is close my eyes and breathe for their messages to start flowing.
After struggling with my Masters for 15 months and fighting the constant stress of an ADHD brain that makes it nearly impossible to handle the pressure of intense courses, I chose to walk away from the program with only six months left. I did enough courses to allow me to take the exam to be a Professional Copy Editor and pass, but after that, it was a daily struggle to get my brain to function, remember, and assimilate all the info being thrown at it. I was always feeling stressed, wrestling with huge feelings of inadequacy (which is NOT like me), and feeling like a failure getting mediocre marks. Yes, I have always been brilliant at English and I was getting passing grades in courses that were all about English. It came down to a choice between struggling every day (to work full-time, find time to fit in my courses AND get my sluggish brain to work for me) or letting it go and finding something that didn’t drain my life away and allowed me room to breathe.
So, I took a deep breath and let it go. Hard as fuck.
Hard as fuck.
Then, the idea of becoming a professional counselor came up over and over within a few week period. I took it as a sign from my guides that this was the opportunity I was looking for, something that would have been a perfect fit for my life experience and skills. I thought that offering grief counseling for parents who had lost infants would be right up my alley – something that I understand all too well. People come to me all the time to share their issues and ask me to help them anyway, so it seemed a natural choice. I applied to pro counseling school, was accepted over other applicants…and then found out I don’t qualify for funding and I can’t afford the entire course. I’d exhausted my resources doing my Masters, so I had no choice but to let go of that option for now as well.
This one was a bit soul crushing, but I chose to keep my chin up and trust that if it’s meant to be, I will eventually make it happen.
I’m still working for myself doing social media marketing for local businesses and also shooting part-time, BUT I am SO tired of working by myself AND being in front of a computer all day long. I want to get off the computer and get back out into the world to interact with people, one on one again.
It’s time for a major change.
This morning, I woke up feeling sad and lost (as I have every day for the past month). I sat and meditated, asking my guides why I’m feeling this way and what I can do to get unstuck.
Here’s what they sent me:
The change of seasons always brings some sadness with it. It is an ending and endings usually cause us to feel somewhat empty. However, they also usher in new energy and growth. You are at another crossroads where big change stands before you and awaits your decision and action. Understandably, you are wary. You are fearful that you won’t be able to make change work for you based on recent events, but you are dwelling on past outcomes and forgetting that every new change is a chance to improve and learn. To grow and develop. Even if this change scares you, there is an opportunity for growth and freedom that comes with it. Remember, as you prepare to step down this new path, we are with you and all you need do is listen to us and follow our signs and we will help. You need to accept and realize you are capable of succeeding at anything. The only thing holding you back is your fear and holding on to past beliefs and outcomes. Let go. Fill yourself with new hope and possibility, and step forward with an open heart.
Wanting to solidify this message, I also pulled out my Ancient Animal Wisdom tarot deck and asked the same question.
I pulled Wildebeest. Here’s what the message that goes with the card says:
Wildebeest says it’s time to go! It’s time for a clean break, a fresh start or a change in location because abundance and renewal are just around the corner. Perhaps you’ve reached your peak or exhausted your resources in your current position and it’s time to embrace something new. Wildebeest encourages new beginnings on your journey ahead toward renewal. Use your intuition and life desires to guide you on this divine exploration. Your future glows with the potential of the bright days that lie ahead.
Everything I ask from them lately is spot on and makes perfect sense. It’s time for a change and I have the power to make that change work, whatever it is.
It’s funny how we allow fear and shit that has happened in the past to freeze us in place and keep us rooted in situations that are no longer healthy for us. This is a repeating theme in my life and, even though I try to recognize it and consciously work to stop it from happening again, it still sometimes mind fucks me and sets me back a step or two. All part of the dance of life, yo!
In this case, I’m going to listen to my wise ones and trust that the latest big change is going to be exactly what I need. I’m going to trust that it’ll work out —whatever it is— and that I’ll continue to learn and grow with the experience.
Enjoy this change in season, peeps. Embrace the feelings that come with the change and sit with them until they flow through you and show you what you’re meant to see. Then tell your fear to get bent and take that first step into the unknown. It’s the only way.